Summary: Goes AU after 'Becoming'. The soul-restoration spell has further-reaching consequences than anyone could have imagined, changing Buffy's life in a multitude of ways. And when her life begins to fall apart, she finds understanding in the last place she would have looked.
Rating: R
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Her week was almost up and she wasn’t really sure what the result was
going to be as yet. She decided to take some time off that afternoon to
visit her friends though, feeling like she hadn’t seen them in years.
They were all gathered at Giles’ and she smiled as she went in: nothing
seemed to have changed much. Injuries had healed and everyone was
smiling – which compared with the situation just two weeks ago was a
pleasant contrast.
They greeted her enthusiastically and she basked in the joy of having sane company.
“How are you, Buffy?” Giles asked softly, watching her with concern.
“I’m… I’m good. Things are starting to pick up.”
“And Spike?”
“Yeah, he seems to be getting better. He’s, you know, a bit less crazy now than he was before.”
She paused a moment before continuing.
“I think we might be moving him… to my mom’s.”
“Huh?!” Xander exclaimed, “When did this happen?”
“Well, my mom came round about a week ago…” – she sent a grateful smile
in Giles’ direction – “And she wants me to come home. But I can’t leave
Spike so she said he could come too.”
“Are you sure that’s a good idea?” Xander remarked, “I mean, he’s a
vampire. Wouldn’t it be weird having him, like, walking around your
house, making himself at home?”
“Somehow I don’t think Spike’s going to be acting like that anytime
soon. When’s he’s not out of it completely, he’s pretty quiet.”
She shrugged and gave them a slanted smile.
“Guess it’s best for everyone. I definitely won’t miss the mansion.”
Willow, who had been silent so far, spoke up then.
“Speaking of… I mean… how’s Angel?”
“He’s… well, he’s Angel again. Mystery man, you know? Pops up now and
again and then disappears again,” she explained with a smile and Willow
giggled girlishly.
“You mean, he’s not staying at the mansion as well?” Giles asked in surprise.
“Na-uh.”
“I assumed he might stay and help you with Spike.”
“You’d think,” she mumbled under her breath, “No. That turned out to be a bad idea.”
“How so?”
“Spike kept getting worked up any time Angel was near him,” she told
them, frowning slightly at the memory, “Lashing out at him and stuff.”
“I wonder why.”
She wondered too and had some pretty unpleasant theories about it that
she didn’t dare run past Angel. Even if she sometimes forget, he was in
some ways just as vulnerable as Spike right now.
“Bad history,” was all she told her friends with a shrug, “They never got on before anyway.”
“It’s quite common in vampire families,” Giles spoke up, “In my
readings, I’ve often found instances when two males have fought. It’s
rare that they both survive.”
She wasn’t the only one frowning at the thought and she shook it off
uncomfortably. It relegated vampires to something too animal, in her
view, and the vampires she knew definitely weren’t animals. They were
more alive, more human than most people she knew.
“Well, I guess Spike got lucky when Angel got cursed first time round,” Xander commented.
She had never really thought about the previous relationship between
the two vampires she knew best; had never imagined what things might
have been like between them before Angel’s soul. Judging by the things
Spike seemed to scream when Angel was around, she could guess that
things weren’t exactly amicable.
“Buffy?”
She started out of her daze, giving her friends a sheepish smile.
“Sorry, I was just thinking. What did you say?”
“Well, erm,” Willow started hesitantly, looking to the other two and
then turning back to her, “We were wondering, erm… are you and Angel
still, like… you know, together?”
She paused before answered, thoughts swirling around her mind.
“Right now, I don’t really know,” she admitted.
“I think it would be best you not pursue anything,” Giles suggested, “I know you… care for Angel but-“
“But Angelus was a bastard, I know. Kinda got that memo.”
“I just don’t want you to… to put yourself at risk.”
And others around you, was the silent addition to that sentence.
“Guys, I’m not stupid. I’m not going to let that happen again. Ever.”
“We weren’t saying that,” Willow said quietly, “We’re just, you know, worried.”
“I know. So am I. But things… well, things just aren’t the same after
you’ve had a sword fight to the death, you know?” she quipped to cover
just how much the subject upset her.
She left her friends not long after that, dawdling as she made her way
back through town towards the mansion, enjoying the feel of the last
rays of the evening sun on her face. She had been cooped up indoors far
too much lately. She was lost in though, considering what she had
talked about with her friends: her and Angel.
He had been to the mansion almost every day in the last week and even
though there had been several kisses and she had shared a bed with him
at least two nights, something felt off between them. There seemed to
be an underlying tension that wouldn’t go away and she wasn’t sure it
was entirely due to the fear that Angelus might return. There was
something else there, something she couldn’t quite put her finger on.
They had had no outright arguments since the last, but it almost felt
like one was brewing.
It didn’t help that she was more than aware of the fact that Angel was
not happy with just how much time she spent with Spike. He never said
anything about it – perhaps not daring to after last time – but he
would rarely ask her about Spike and if she commented about something
offhand, she didn’t miss the vampire’s negative reaction to his
grandchilde’s name. His name on her lips in particular. She wasn’t sure
he was completely over the ridiculous jealousy he had displayed in the
first few days.
She had almost reached the mansion now and looked up at the large, dark
building. Somehow, coming back to it always caused a shudder to crawl
over her and she was definitely glad that she would hopefully be
leaving soon and returning to her own home. The house was silent as she
went in and climbed the stairs somewhat wearily. She was headed for
what had quickly become her room – next door to Spike – but as she
approached his door, she heard muted voices. She edged closer and
picked out a woman’s voice.
“The sun has taken you away, my Spike. Taken you away to play with it. But I shall bring you back.”
“Dru, please.”
She threw the door open, startling both vampires. Her eyes flew around
the room, taking everything in and she stared, horrified, at the dead
girl at Drusilla’s feet. Spike, meanwhile, was huddled against the
wall, throwing looks of longing and disgust at the dead body.
“Slayer!” Drusilla hissed at her and she squared up defensively, wishing she had a stake on her.
“Drusilla, why don’t you just leave, okay? I really don’t want to have to kill you in front of Spike.”
That was apparently the wrong thing to say as the vampiress flew at
her, nails lashing out and catching her just under the eye. She cried
out in pain and struggled as the vampiress tackled her to the ground,
slipping into game face.
“I really do want to have to kill you in front of Spike,” she taunted with a cruel
smile and grabbed hold of Buffy’s hair, pulling her head back and
baring her neck.
She began to struggle even more, very aware of Drusilla’s intentions.
The vampiress was too close and when her fangs scratched across her
throat, breaking the skin, she knew she was in big trouble.
And then, in the next minute, she wasn’t. Drusilla was thrown from her
and she rolled over in a half-daze, watching with wide eyes as Spike
struggled with the vampiress. She backhanded him across the face and,
as weak as he was, he dropped to the ground.
“The sunshine will take you and burn you up into little pieces!”
Drusilla spit out and whirled round, disappearing out of the door
before Buffy could even make an attempt to catch her.
She sat up dazedly, holding a hand to her bleeding neck. Spike’s eyes
flew to hers and then slid to the dead girl behind her, pained and
hungry.
“Spike,” she called out shakily, trying to distract his attention from the corpse, “Spike, please.”
He wouldn’t take his eyes off the girl and she carefully shifted until
she was right in his eye line, forcing his gaze away from the dead
girl. He growled lowly, shifting into game face and she tensed, ready
to fight. But he just sat there, golden eyes watching her, flicking
briefly to her neck and then back to her eyes again. She didn’t know
what possessed her in that moment, but in the next, she was crawling
towards Spike, kneeling just before him.
“Spike,” she whispered, removing her hand from her neck.
His eyes dropped to her neck and she saw his whole face twitch with the
smell of Slayer’s blood. She reached out a trembling hand and placed it
on his shoulder, eyes meeting his golden ones.
“Take some,” she whispered, surprising herself even as she did so.
Everything seemed to slow down but the next thing she knew, strong
hands were dragging her close and his mouth was hovering over her neck.
She let out a shaky breath, forcing herself to relax and she just felt
his tongue pass over her neck. She closed her eyes, taking long, deep
breaths as his tongue passed over her gently. She kept waiting for the
piercing pain of his fangs, but it never came. His touch was gentle,
reverent even, and she barely felt any pain more than the slight ache
of the cut itself.
Suddenly, a deep, dangerous growl sounded and her eyes flew open, her
heart jolting as she took in the sight of an angry Angel at the door.
“Angel,” she gasped.
Spike jerked away from her and turned to face his grandsire,
surprisingly confident-seeming. Angel stared at his grandchilde and
then enraged golden eyes flew to hers.
“I knew it,” he growled around his fangs, sending a shiver down her spine.
She scrambled to her feet then, moving towards the older vampire.
“Angel, it’s not-“
Before she could even finish her sentence, he lashed out and backhanded
her around the face, sending her flying against the wall. Cradling her
face, she could only watch on in horror as he stalked over to Spike and
dragged him to his feet, only to sling him into the far wall.
“You think you can touch her and get away with it?!” Angel growled,
slowly approaching his grandchilde, who seemed to have lost what
confidence he had before and was now huddled into a protective ball.
“Angel,” she called out helplessly.
“Shut up,” he spat out, turning hateful eyes on her and she couldn’t
help but recoil in fear. She had never seen Angel look so dangerous. In
a way, he was scarier than Angelus right now.
He suddenly seemed to notice the dead girl and he turned golden eyes on her again.
“Feeding him other girls as well?” he asked tautly.
“It’s not like that,” she got out, pushing herself to her feet, knowing
she needed to diffuse this situation and quickly. He took another step
towards Spike and she quickly spoke up.
“Angel, don’t. Please. This isn’t you, I know it isn’t.”
He was deathly still for a pause and when he turned to her, his eyes turned brown again.
“Maybe you don’t know me as well as you think you do,” he got out, his
voice softer now as he took a step back. She didn’t really know what to
say to that but she took a step towards him.
“I can explain everything,” she said softly, “You see-“
“Don’t,” he interrupted, eyes pained and cold at the same time, “Just save it, Buffy.”
“But I-“
“Leave it,” he snapped and with another look at his grandchilde and at
the dead girl, he turned and strode out of the room, leaving them in
deathly quiet.
She stood there in silence for long seconds until finally her brain
caught up with what had happened and she sank to the floor, unable to
stop the tears from coming.
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