Summary: Spike, jaded best selling novelist, fresh from rehab, has
writer's block and carries a guilty secret. He searches for redemption
at a lonely beach cottage where he meets Buffy, owner of the cottage
reeling from a devastating personal trauma. Can they each mend the
other or is it too late for both?
Disclaimer: The characters from Buffy the Vampire Slayer are
owned by Joss Whedon, Mutant Enemy, and Fox studios. This story is not
meant to infringe upon anyone's rights, only to entertain.
Author's Notes: Disclaimer: I do not own these characters, Joss Whedon, ME and David Greenwalt do. I own nothing but the plot. Thanks to my beta EnigmaticBlues for the handholding during a story which is very different than I usually pen.
Rating: R
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Chapter 9- Forget the World
If I lay here,
If I just lay here,
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?
-Snow Patrol
-Chasing Cars
Buffy awakened slowly and tried to remember why she was lying on her
left side on an unfamiliar sleeping surface. There was a weight across
her waist. There was another across her legs. Then she remembered. She
was lying on the couch in William's cottage.
She opened her eyes all the way. His arm was wrapped around her with
his leg across hers. They were spooned together tightly on the narrow
couch. She quietly inched over so she could study the man beside her.
His tousled blond curls had fallen across his eyes. Buffy felt that his
incredible blue eyes were probably one of his best features. She loved
how expressive they were, how they darkened when he kissed her.
She watched the early morning light play across the angular planes of
his face and couldn't resist tracing her finger lightly across his
sharp cheekbones, following the sunlight's path. He was still asleep;
his deep, even breathing caused his bare chest to rise and fall
steadily. With her eyes, she followed the light sprinkling of sun
bleached hair until it disappeared into his faded shorts.
He's a beautiful man. Not just his body, but his soul. No one has made me feel like this, not even Angel.
She probed experimentally at the place in her heart that usually ached
whenever she thought about New York. The usual sharp edged pain had
dulled.
She realized last night's cathartic crying had eased the horror
and grief. Coupled with the passing of time, the bitter hurt had
diminished and been relegated to the past. It had been pushed aside by
the kind and sensitive comfort given by the man sleeping at her side.
Now, she could finally look at the future again with a sense of hope, a
future that she wanted to share with William. She suddenly realized she
had fallen in love with him.
Her revelation caused her to sit up abruptly. She stared down at Spike.
She suddenly needed to memorize the features of the man she now knew
she could love with her entire heart.
Spike awoke slowly; a sleepy and confused look crossed his face. He
noticed Buffy watching him and smiled tenderly. “Good morning luv.”
His eyes searched her face. “Are you alright? Did you get enough rest?” He reached up to gently stroke her cheek.
Buffy lowered her eyes. “I'm sure I look horrible. There's nothing like
a crying binge to make a girl feel ugly, but I actually do feel much
better.”
Spike shook his head and said softly, “It's impossible for you to look
horrible. You could never be anything but beautiful.” Sitting up, he
continued. “I'm glad that you're feeling better, although I'm sorry we
slept on the couch. That was never my intention but I guess we were
both so exhausted.”
Buffy smiled softly and searched Spike's eyes. “I feel like a huge
weight has finally been lifted. I can breathe again. I confided my
worse fears and you listened without judging me. William, you've helped
me to understand myself. I've had a lot of pain in my life but I can
finally move past it. Thank you for being here and for caring about me.”
She hugged him tightly. “I'm ready to spend as much time together as we
can. I've realized that I want to be with you, and that I care deeply
about you, too.”
Delighted with her response, he grabbed her around the waist and pulled
her into his lap for a kiss. “Buffy, I know we haven't known each other
very long at all, but there is already such a strong connection between
us. I'm sure it will only get stronger. I want to spend as much time as
possible with you, too. I want to get to know you even better and there
are things I need you to know about me, too. Things I need to tell you
about my past.” He grimaced. “And some of them are neither nice nor pretty.”
She agreed. “I want to know all about you. Anything you want to tell
me. We can't have any secrets between us. We'll make the time to do
just that as soon as possible.”
She stood up. “Although right now I've got to go home and change
clothes. Then I need to finish Willow's cottage. She emailed that she's
arriving later this morning instead of tomorrow. I can't wait for my
best friend to meet my boyfriend.”
He stood up and grinned. “I love hearing that I'm boyfriend material.”
He raised an eyebrow and then suggestively looked her up and down.
“Hmmm. That means that some day I might get the chance to execute my special plan.”
She looked amused. “And what type of plan might that be?”
He leered openly at her. “Oh, it's a plan of epic proportions.”
Buffy glanced down. “Epic proportions, huh?”
“Definitely.”
Her lips quirked. “Then I can't wait.”
******
By 11:00 Buffy sat in the office with Dawn. She glanced at the clock
again. Something was wrong because time was standing absolutely still.
Certain that it had been 11:00 o'clock for at least 20 minutes, she
sighed. .
Buffy's best friend Willow was attending UC Los Angeles after being
admitted to their prestigious graduate honors mathematics program. A
talented theoretical mathematician she was already making a name for
herself in the department. Buffy was very proud of her friend but
missed her. Now she'd have a week to spend with her and Willow's
girlfriend Tara.
Just as the clock crawled to 11:10, a tall, thin red haired woman stuck her head in the office. “Am I too late for lunch?”
Buffy and Dawn -who had been waiting a bit more patiently- both yelled “Willow!”
She grinned and came in for a hug. “I'm sorry, I'm kinda late, but Tara got held up.”
She put her arm around the shy, blonde woman waiting behind her. Tara
smiled in greeting at the women behind the desk. “Hi, sorry I held
everything up, but I got the chance to leave a couple days earlier, so,
well, here we both are.”
Willow looked proudly at Buffy and Dawn. “Tara's being modest. Her
project was so well received that out of the entire literature
department, she was the only grad student allowed to skip finals.”
Buffy smiled widely. “That's okay, because, well, I've been busy
actually meeting a guy.” She grabbed Willow excitedly by the arm. “I
can't wait for you to meet William. He's wonderful.”
Willow smiled at her friend's enthusiasm. “Okay, so where is this
boyfriendy guy? Who is he? What's he do for a living? Is he smart?
Really cute? This best friend needs more information to formulate an
opinion. Has there been any serious smoochies I should know about?”
Dawn, who had been listening smugly to the wonderful attributes of The
New Boyfriend all morning, wagged her finger at Buffy. “She spent last
night with him.”
Willow's mouth fell open. “You were going to say something about that exactly when?”
Buffy gave Dawn a look. “It's not like that. I told him the whole Angel
story, got all weepy on his shoulder and we both fell asleep on the
couch. He's incredibly thoughtful, caring, sweet, kind, smart and …”
Dawn interrupted. “Don't forget his hot body and that great car.”
Buffy looked askance at her again. “Yes, because those things are so much more important then his character.”
She looked thoughtful. “You know, I've never even asked him what
he does for a living. I know he's good with tools. He helped me tile
the floor here, but he's not in construction. He seems to have some
money though; he's staying here for a month. He must have earned it
some way, because his family isn't wealthy.”
Willow shrugged her shoulders. “It's all so new, but you'll have plenty
of time to find out all of those details as your relationship
progresses. That's half the fun, learning about each other.” She hugged
her friend. “Oh Buffy, I'm just so happy for you. Why don't you show me
to our cottage? You can tell me all about this great guy on the way.”
She picked up the luggage. “Then Dawnie can fill me in on what needs to be done while she's gone.”
Dawn looked at her watch. “Can I call Janice and see if she can come
and pick me up a day earlier? Maybe Tara could stay here and watch for
William. He called and offered to bring pizza for lunch.”
Tara spoke up. “Sure, I'll watch the desk until you guys get back.” She
settled in the chair at the desk. She couldn't wait to meet the guy
that had finally changed Buffy's outlook on life.
*****
The office door opened a few minutes later and a slim blond man
balancing several pizza boxes entered, carefully placing the boxes on
the counter. He straightened, noticed the pretty blonde stranger and
smiled at her. “'Lo. I'm William Jamison. Which lovely lady are you,
Tara or Willow?”
Tara's eyes widened and her mouth dropped, but she quickly recovered.
“Hi. It's nice to meet you. I'm Tara, Willow's girlfriend. You must be
Buffy's boyfriend?”
Tara couldn't believe it. She was sitting here in Buffy's office and Spike had just walked in and placed pizzas on the counter. William
Jamison is Spike. He's Buffy's boyfriend? Wow. I wonder why he hasn't
told her who he really is. Hmm, could be that whole constant drunken
carousing thing or maybe the absolutely hundreds of girlfriends thing.
Oh God, maybe he doesn't really care about her at all. There's just no
way she could handle a fling right now.
Spike watched several different expressions flit across the blonde
girl's face. After years in the public eye, he knew at least one of
those expressions intimately. He realized instantly that Tara had
recognized him. He made the decision to continue with the pretense,
hoping that she really hadn't recognized him and that he was just
mistaken.
He knew he needed to explain to Buffy before he 'outted' himself,
especially to a complete stranger. Casually he replied, “Yeah, Buffy
and I just started seeing each other.”
Hoping to change the subject quickly to a much more neutral topic,
he pointed to the boxes on the counter. “I brought pizza for
everybody's lunch.”
Dawn stepped back into the room and waved a hand in greeting. “Hi
William. Oh good, I love Pepperoni.” She selected a slice, picked off a
piece of the pepperoni and chewed it avidly.
Picking up a slice of mushroom pizza, Tara continued to study him. He's
not going to explain? Hmmm, okay, I'll play along, but only because
anyone who uses such beautiful imagery in their writing should get the
benefit of the doubt. Besides, it's not my place to tell, at least
right here and now.
With Dawn sitting there watching and listening to them, she said
the only thing she could think of quickly. “It's really nice of you to
buy lunch.” Standing up from the desk, she looked at him with an amused
expression and held her pizza slice up. “I hope all of this wasn't too
expensive.”
Spike looked down at the pizza boxes. “No it was fine. It gives me the
chance to meet Buffy's friends.” He hesitated briefly. “Where is Buffy?”
“Buffy and Willow will be back soon. They took our luggage to the cottage.” I can't wait to see Willow's face when she sees you.
She watched Spike- William- lean against the counter and
strive to appear nonchalant. When he nervously flipped the top of the
pizza box open and then closed without taking anything out, Tara became
even more amused. She decided to tweak him a tiny bit. “So, William, how long will you be here in Sunnydale?”
His mouth twitched at the emphasis placed on his real name. Now he knew
Tara had recognized him. He already liked her, she was smart and it
looked as though she really wasn't going to say anything. Yet. He
continued the game.
Spike looked at the blonde, a small smile playing on his lips. “Well,
my reservation's for one month. I love the beach. Now that I've met
Buffy, I guess it all depends.” On what she says when I tell her who I really am and that I've fallen in love with her.
He shrugged. “I have a very flexible schedule.” Not wanting to wait for
the inevitable question of why he had such a flexible schedule, he
smoothly changed the subject. “Buffy mentioned you were both in
graduate school. What's your major?”
“Literature. I'm specializing in contemporary western writers.” She smiled widely. “Maybe you've read at least one of them yourself?”
He caught himself before he groaned out loud. He replied dryly. “I've
been known to read a few.” He shot her an amused look. “Is Willow also
an English major?”
Tara grinned. “No, she's in the math department.”
He snapped the pizza box open and closed again. “That's a tough
subject. She's probably way too busy to really read anything other than
formulas.”
Tara's eyes twinkled. “Oh no, Willow's very well read. She likes pretty
much the same stuff I do. In fact, we both enjoy the same writer-
Spike.” Gotcha!
At this point, his blue eyes sparkling at her response, Spike could only shake his head in defeat.
Dawn, busy eating the pizza, tried to follow the conversation, but
something puzzled her. Why were Tara and William both so amused?
Personally, Dawn hated literature and didn't think it was at all funny,
much less hysterical.
“Hey, either of you guys going to eat more pizza? There's still a lot. Buffy and Willow won't eat all of this.”
Spike's shoulders twitched. “I just remembered that I need to make a
transatlantic phone call while the timing's right. Tell Buffy that I'll
phone her before I leave for the airport tonight.” He mentally
chastised himself. Coward, you're going to have to meet Willow at some point, but maybe you can still save this.
Picking up the key for Rupert's cottage that Buffy had left on the
counter, Spike turned back to Tara. Flashing a wide smile he declared,
“Pet, it's been a real treat meeting you.”
His eyes sparkled. “Thanks for the interesting conversation. I'd very much like to get together again for another discussion.”
His expression sobered and Tara watched a silent plea enter his eyes.
“Maybe I can offer some insight into at least one of those more
mysterious writers.” He turned abruptly, opened the office door and
walked out into the noon sunshine.
Tara sat down and thoughtfully munched her mushroom pizza.
When Willow and Buffy returned they were both disappointed that Spike wasn't there.
Tara watched Buffy closely, trying to interpret her feelings. She saw
that Buffy was worried about him and that she cared a lot more than she
would say to any of them. Tara decided she had to find a way to talk to
Spike again. She needed to know that he wasn't planning to hurt Buffy.
She was so fragile.
Tara also knew that she needed to tell Willow. She turned to her
girlfriend. “Willow, since we're going to be filling in for Dawnie
starting tomorrow, why don't we take some time now and go for a walk on
the beach? Buffy, you won't mind if I borrow my girlfriend will you?
We'll all get together later for dinner.”
Buffy shook her head. “No, of course not, I need to do some laundry and
stuff anyway. I'll see you both around six for dinner. Its girl's night
and I'm making my world famous chili.”
As soon as they left the office, Willow stopped abruptly on the path.
“O.k. now what is this really about? Because you know I don't do the
beach at noon. Redhead, remember?”
Tara looked around. “Let's go to our cottage and I'll explain.”
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