Summary: Spike, jaded best selling novelist, fresh from rehab, has
writer's block and carries a guilty secret. He searches for redemption
at a lonely beach cottage where he meets Buffy, owner of the cottage
reeling from a devastating personal trauma. Can they each mend the
other or is it too late for both?
Disclaimer: The characters from Buffy the Vampire Slayer are
owned by Joss Whedon, Mutant Enemy, and Fox studios. This story is not
meant to infringe upon anyone's rights, only to entertain.
Author's Notes: Disclaimer: I do not own these characters, Joss Whedon, ME and David Greenwalt do. I own nothing but the plot. Thanks to my beta EnigmaticBlues for the handholding during a story which is very different than I usually pen.
Rating: R
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Chapter 5 -Call on Me
When the rain is falling
And you feel like a stranger
Call on me, call on me
I'll be by your side
-Bad Company
- Call on Me
After they sat down at the dining room table with their salads and the
lasagna, they laughed nearly nonstop. Buffy told Spike silly stories
about her child hood in California with Dawn and Spike told her about
growing up in England with three older brothers.
They discovered a mutual love for pineapple pizza and old black and white movies. He confessed to a secret love for Passions, a soap that Buffy's mom used to watch. She admitted to a high school crush on someone strictly because of his hot car.
After Spike helped her with the dishes they returned to the living
room. She sat down on a corner of the leather couch. He dropped down
next to her, and pulled out his wallet. Reaching in, he pulled out some
snapshots and handed one to her. "This is my niece Annie. I got the pic
a couple months ago, right after her birth. She'll be a heartbreaker
later.”
A fleeting expression of pain and sadness crossed Buffy's face. She
handed the photo back smiling a bit too brightly. “She really is
beautiful.”
Spike looked at her sharply and tried to assess the reason for the sudden wall.
She gave no explanation and pretended nothing was wrong. He picked up
on the cue and quickly handing her another photo. “This is her da and
mum, my oldest brother Mickey and his wife Sybil.”
Buffy had been given a completely unexpected shock. She tried not to
appear maudlin and gamely looked down at the couple. The woman had a
heart shaped face and the man resembled an older and heavier William.
They were holding hands and smiling into the camera. There was an
unidentifiable building behind them.
“Where do they live? London?”
He grinned. “Not everyone British lives in London, Pet. Place called
Torquay. It's on the water, like here, but colder. I visit them as much
as I can.”
She handed his photo back. “Is a love of the beach the reason you chose Beachside for your vacation?”
Spike's face assumed a smooth mask and his voice a guarded tone. “It's
not really a vacation per se. I've let some things slide in my life
lately and I needed somewhere I could think about those issues. I do
love the beach and I didn't want a lot of people about. When Dawn
mentioned that you were newly opened, it sounded perfect.”
It was Buffy's turn to wonder about the sudden coolness. She realized
she'd struck a nerve. Spike smiled and in an obvious ploy to change the
topic, asked “So, how do you like being your own boss?”
After regaling him with a story about finding how badly a cottage roof
needed repair when her foot fell through it, she tucked both feet under
her and finished her wine. Their earlier easy camaraderie reestablished
itself and they both privately sighed in relief.
Spike, still chuckling, leaned back against the couch. He reached for
the ashtray Buffy provided and lit another cigarette. “Speaking of
cottages, pet, I was wondering if you might have space for someone
else. I've an old friend who wants to visit while he's in the states on
a business trip. He'll be arriving Wednesday. If not, he can just stay
with me.”
“I've got one that's nearly ready. It just needs the porch floor
rebuilt and a few small things inside, but I'm not sure it can be done
by Wednesday.”
He leaned forward. "What if I help you? Since it's my friend that's rushing it a bit?"
She thought about it. “Two people could have it ready that quickly. Why don't
I meet you Monday morning? I've got to clean yours and the Wood's
cottages and then we can start. I want to give you or your friend a
break on the rental as payment for the work. It's the only way I'll
agree to it.”
“It's certainly not necessary, although I'm sure Rupert would be
delighted. Buffy, pet, about the daily cleaning. I really don't need a
maid every day. Even at home, I only have a service that comes weekly.
Could you just leave the towels and stuff on the porch most days? I
promise not to let the trash get out of hand.” He smirked. “And if it
does, I'll just throw it over the cliff into the water. That way,
you'll never know.”
She laughed. “Sure, no problem.” Then she pretended to frown. “You know, we're a small town but we do have litter laws.”
He chuckled and stubbed out his cigarette. He stood up. “Well, it's
been a busy day and I'm a bit knackered. I'm gonna go. Thanks for
dinner and the company. See you Monday.”
She opened the door for him. “Thanks again for teaching me the tiling stuff.”
She gently closed the door.
After Spike left, Buffy walked around the cottage and finished cleaning
up. As she emptied Spike's ashtray, she thought back on the dinner. She
suddenly realized she hadn't enjoyed anything that much in a long time.
It had to be before New York.
Buffy always categorized her life into two separate parts. There was
the 'before she moved to New York' portion and there was the 'after she
left New York and returned to California' portion. The before New York
half was how her life should have gone. She had been in love with
Angel, had all the money she needed to keep the wolf away, and
everything had been great. Then the part during and after New York had
somehow turned out wrong.
Now, trying to parent a teenager and keep her business afloat at the
same time presented more of the same. She loved her sister and her new
business but they were exhausting. She always felt tired.
Sitting down on the couch, she drew her legs up under her and stared
out the picture window, wondering if she'd ever have the courage or
enough energy to start another category.
She though of the proud smile on William's face when he had produced
the photo of his new niece. She decided that he'd make a wonderful
father. She already believed him to be a nice man. Laying her head on
the arm of the couch, she suddenly felt exhausted. A new category would
just be way too hard. Dawn arrived back from her friend's house an hour
later to discover her sister sitting on the couch in the darkened room
staring out the window.
*******
Spike strolled back to his cottage. He couldn't stop thinking about
Buffy. He thought he sensed a genuine connection between them, and he
suddenly felt nervous and afraid.
Before I could ever tell her anything that I'm beginning to feel,
I'd have to tell her more about myself, but what would I say? I'm a
writer who can't seem to write anymore, recently out of rehab, with a
dangerous reputation and scars where my heart used to be. Yeah, that's
a conversation I can't wait to have, it's sure to turn out so well...
He spied his elephant again, still perched on the table. Unexpectedly
the glimmer of an idea sparked and words started to flow through his
head. He opened the laptop and hit the start button. While he waited
for it to boot up, he remembered all the time he'd spent recently
staring at a blank screen. He started to panic and doubt himself. The
insistent thought of waiting until morning crossed his mind.
Analyzing his feelings Spike realized he was still frightened of yet
another attempt to write. He knew if he didn't try again now; that if
he put it off again, it would be the end of his writing career. He would never write again and he would have lost an important part of himself forever.
He took a deep breath, resolutely reached over and pulled the laptop
close. It was now or never. Tentatively he tapped out the first
sentence.
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