Summary: Four years have passed since a certain peroxide blond vampire was last seen in Sunnydale losing the Gem of Amara to the Slayer. Since that time the Initiative has introduced chipped vampires into a form of slavery, available to selected bidders. Weary and disillusioned, Buffy succumbs to her absent Watcher’s advice to obtain a vampire bodyguard to help her in the fight against evil.
Author's Notes: Warning: Torture, Rape, Explicit Sexual Situations, m/m
Rating: NC-17
Author's Notes: A huge thank you to the two darlings who have kindly beta'd this fic - the magnificent megan_peta and Schehrezade_1.
Groaning, Buffy closed the door behind her, dropped the bloodstained
axe and limped into the kitchen to drag out her extensive first aid kit
and start repairs. With practiced efficiency she shrugged out of her
ruined jacket, tossing it onto the floor before examining the scores
running down her left arm. Satisfied that they only needed cleaning and
a dressing, she briskly set about doing just that. Five minutes later
Buffy opened the refrigerator door and pulled out a random convenience
meal from the stack inside and popped it into the microwave before
snagging a carton of juice. She gulped down the first glass before
refilling it and putting the carton back in the fridge.
Moments later the microwave pinged and the exhausted Slayer pulled out
the container of whatever, placing it on a tray with the glass after
tearing the film off, and wandered into the dimly lit sitting room.
Sinking into the couch, Buffy picked up the remote and flicked through
a few stations, settling on a nature documentary about dolphins before
tackling her food. ‘Might as well look at something pretty for a change.’
Buffy made short work of the bland pasta bake on the tray. She neither
liked nor disliked it; it was just convenient, a bit like her life.
Sighing, she returned the tray to the kitchen, rinsed her glass and put
the empty food container in the bin, then grabbed a diet soda before
returning to curl up on the couch and go over that night’s patrol in
her head.
Once upon a time this would have been related to her Watcher, Giles,
but those days were long gone. It seemed like forever since she’d been
surrounded by others, all helping her in the fight against evil. Her
mom had been alive then and there had been comfort and happiness to be
had. Dawn, her not so real sister, had died saving the world and Oz,
who’d disappeared into the Initiative, was never to be seen again
Not all were dead. Willow and her partner, Tara, now ran the Magic Box
as part of their partnership with Giles. Buffy saw them once a week,
but that barely kept her loneliness at bay. Xander had married his
ex-demon girlfriend and moved off to Cleveland. He now had a successful
career in construction, the inherent dangers of living on the Hellmouth
left far behind. Her last boyfriend, Riley, had been turned whilst
visiting a vamp brothel and it had fallen to Buffy to take him out.
So much had changed since the Initiative had set up operations in
Sunnydale. The vamp and demon population had gradually fallen to levels
that made sightings a rarity, and contact a red letter day. Only after
they’d relocated their base to a secret centre just outside LA had the
numbers gradually crept up again, as the Hellmouth had sent out its
siren call once more. Buffy still had to cope with the usual yearly
apocalypse; had taken out Adam - the driving factor in the Initiative’s
relocation - lost her sister in her efforts to defeat Glory, almost
come to grief when Willow had gone off the rails with her overuse of
magic during the Trio’s brief reign of stupidity. But all of that had
come at a price.
The Initiative had changed everything. They’d taken vamps off the
streets, well, normally from cemeteries and dark alleys, chipped them
and put them to use for the good of humanity. They’d been trained in a
variety of skills and sold to the highest bidders – as long as the
government approved. A grey world existed, in between light and dark,
where humans supposedly utilised their pet vamps for the betterment of
all. In reality, those with power became more powerful due to their new
acquisitions, and the public seemed to be able to turn its normal blind
eye and behave as though the chipped undead they encountered were no
more out of the ordinary than a pet dog would have been.
When Giles had taken over as head of the new Watchers Council after
Quentin Travers’ unexpected demise – some might say suspicious - he had
investigated what benefits these new chipped vampires could offer.
Since then he had been trying, intermittently, to persuade Buffy to
procure one for her own use. Many had been trained to be bodyguards
against demonic threats and Giles felt that one of these would be ideal
for Buffy to use in her mission. For the last three years Buffy had
been adamantly against the idea, but after tonight’s events, she wasn’t
so sure.
It had been a routine patrol of the caves that had led to her latest
trouble. Buffy was finding it difficult to concentrate lately; she was
tired, lonely and feeling increasingly disconnected from those she was
chosen to protect. Her senses had failed to register the presence of
three Maruka demons before they were upon her. It was more luck than
anything else that she’d managed to kill them, the wound she’d received
from one of their claws letting her off more lightly than she perhaps
deserved.
Having a vampire, even a chipped one, living in her home was not
something that Buffy particularly wanted. It would give her something
else to think about though. As far as she could tell, from the scanty
details that she’d paid attention to, it would need to be trained and
cared for. And, perhaps, even a vampire for company would be better
than no company at all. Plus, vampire senses were acute and should be
able to warn her of approaching nasties. Buffy decided to call Giles in
the morning to discuss it with him. Picking up the remote, she turned
off the TV and headed up to a shower.
Stepping under the hot water Buffy continued to think about vampires
or, more accurately, the differences that age and experience made.
Fledges tended to be all grrr and arrrgh, finding it difficult to
contain the bloodlust of their demon, acting on innate impulses. She’d
met a few newbies that had a bit more grip on their unlife but not
many. Then there were the more experienced vamps, those with more
knowledge of who and what they were, more cunning and fighting ability.
And, of course, then there were the master vampires.
Lothos, The Master, Kakistos, Darla – they had all been difficult
opponents, strong and wily. Angel when he’d lost his soul had proved
how a vampire could plan to make the kill as agonising and drawn out as
possible. Drusilla had been, well, mad. And, in that madness, totally
unpredictable. Dracula was out there somewhere, no doubt doing his
thrall thing on some unsuspecting victim. ‘Makes note to self not to get a vamp with thrall!’
That was about it. Buffy turned off the water and stepped from the bath
as she contemplated the only other master vampire of her acquaintance.
Spike.
Now there was an enigma if ever there was one. The only vampire that
talked of love. The only unsouled vampire to have entered into an
alliance with her, to save the world no less, even though he was evil
through and through. The one vampire her mom had liked. The one she’d
enjoyed fighting the most. ‘Wonder what happened to him?’
Pulling on her favourite black satin pyjamas, so much her favourite
that she had three identical sets, Buffy settled herself into the
comfort of her large bed and snuggled down for the night. Definitely
didn’t want to get a fledge, that would be too much like having a
chained rabid dog in her home. Maybe one with some experience, but not
too much; enough to exert some control over its demon even if the chip
wasn’t present. A master vampire? The Slayer doubted that any of those
would be chipped, and even if they were, well, who wanted someone that
devious to worry about? Satisfied that she at least had some idea of
what she’d be looking for, Buffy succumbed to the pull of slumber.
***
Giles smiled broadly into the phone. “You have no idea how relieved
this has made me, Buffy. I’ll send you an email with the details for
the next auction. It should take place in the next couple of weeks, if
memory serves. Once you confirm that you’re going I’ll arrange an open
line of credit, make sure that you can get the right one to help you.”
Back in Sunnydale, Buffy smirked slightly at her absent Watcher’s
enthusiasm. “Yeah, well, I hear that all the cool people have one now.”
“Buffy,” Giles blustered indignantly over the very clear connection. “I
do hope you are treating this with the seriousness it deserves. You are
not choosing an accessory here but a potential partner in your fight
against evil.”
Buffy’s grin grew. “Calm down, Giles. I know, but it still seems kinda
funny to be thinking about having an evil vamp help in that fight. Are
you sure these chips won’t go all kablooey on me?”
A clear huff sounded in England. “I’ve seen the test results and there
have been no failures over the last four years. And anyway, I would
imagine that you’ll get one of the newer models.”
Buffy restrained a giggle. “Trying not to be ageist here, Giles. If,
and I repeat if, I do get a vamp, it’ll be the one I think can help
most.”
Slightly mollified, Giles didn’t try to repress his pleasure any more.
“I’m so pleased that you’ve made this choice, Buffy. I know things have
been difficult, and I wish I could be there for you more. The offer of
sending another Watcher still stands, you know.”
“No thanks, Giles,” Buffy grimaced. “It took me long enough to train
you, I don’t think I could go through it again with anybody else.”
For once, Giles took this in the spirit it was intended and chuckled
slightly before replying, “Quite, quite. I’ll send you the information.
Let me know. Goodbye, Buffy.”
“Bye, Giles.” Buffy heard the click at the other end and replaced the handset. Time to visit the Magic Box.
***
Tara smiled at the departing customer and then beamed happily when she
saw Buffy approaching the counter. A quick delve into Buffy’s aura
showed an increase in the optimism that had been slowly disappearing
over the time Tara had known her. “Something’s happened, Buffy. What is
it?”
Buffy smiled at the gentle Wiccan who’d come to be her dearest friend
and closest confidante. “Yep, sure has, Tara. I’ve decided to take
Giles up on his offer and get me one of those chipped vamps.”
“Are you sure that’s wise, Buffy? Couldn’t it be dangerous?” Tara
didn’t want to voice her real objection; this was slavery, even if they
were demons. Tara still recalled how she’d felt when she believed
herself to be a demon too.
Buffy looked Tara squarely in the eyes, trying to let her friend see
that, whatever her misgivings, this course of action was not being
taken lightly. Her current need outweighed her deep reservations and,
now that Buffy has made the decision, she was determined to follow it
through.
The Wiccan had read Buffy’s aura on a number of occasions now, and
they’d had several conversations about elements that had caused Tara
concern. Most of it centred on Buffy’s growing feeling of distance from
the innocents she was charged to protect. Buffy had even put forward an
interesting concept about why Slayers normally died so young; once they
understood the evil that was in mankind, it became more difficult to
condemn only those without a soul.
As the innocence and naiveté of the Slayer became lost with maturity
and experience, it proved increasingly chafing to be unable to tackle
the evil in man. There seemed to be something in the Slayer psyche that
demanded she fight evil, all evil, not just that easily justified
retribution she dished out to demons. Buffy thought that they just gave
up one day when they realised the futility of the task and became too
disillusioned to continue. Buffy had confessed to Tara that, without
her family and her Watcher, she sometimes felt like letting it all go
and giving some big bad its one good day.
“You know I wouldn’t choose this path if I didn’t feel I had to,” Buffy
spoke softly. “I know I’m well past my sell by date, Tara. Sometimes,
on a bad night, I can feel myself hesitating and wondering why the hell
I’m doing this. Who am I doing it for?”
“You’re doing it for all of us, Buffy. The world needs you.” Tara knew
it was partly the weight of this responsibility that had worn Buffy
down gradually over the years. The Buffy in front of her was so very
different from the more innocent Buffy she had first met almost four
years earlier. The Slayer’s run in with the Initiative had taken a lot
out of her.
The death of her mother, followed by the need to kill her newly turned
boyfriend, had knocked Buffy hard. Then to be presented with a sister
that didn’t exactly exist except as energy, only to lose her in a
battle to save the world from an insane hell god – it had driven Buffy
into a deep depression, and a chasm between her and the Scoobies had
developed. Losing Dawn had almost been the end.
During that dark time, when the dynamics of the group had fallen apart,
Willow had dabbled overmuch with magic; her desire to make everything
right by using her powers was as addictive as heroin. At the last
possible moment Willow had had an epiphany and rejoined the Scoobies in
their fight against the Trio, helping to stop them before the idiots
had gone too far. The reunion had proved temporary. Giles, making a
rare appearance, had only stayed briefly before returning to England,
taking Willow and Tara with him for much needed training with a coven.
Xander and Anya, after a whirlwind wedding, had left Sunnydale when
Xander was offered a lucrative contract in Cleveland.
For several months Buffy was alone. No family, no friends, no Watcher.
The strain of working all hours at a burger joint to pay for the upkeep
of the house and stave off mounting debts, slaying at night with a few
hours sleep, only to start all over again – it was slowly killing her.
At her lowest ebb Buffy called Giles. She told him that unless he could
help her he’d better tell the Council to be on the lookout for the next
Slayer any day now.
A horrified and suitably chastened Giles used every influence at his
disposal, called in every favour he was even vaguely owed, and managed
to browbeat the Council into awarding Buffy a significant lump sum,
together with a generous remuneration. In the space of eight hours,
Buffy’s bank account held enough to pay off all outstanding debts and
leave a sizeable amount of capital besides.
Buffy quit her job that day, stocked up with food, took herself to the
best beauty salon in town and treated herself to everything. When Buffy
left late in the afternoon she had been massaged and manicured,
pedicured and wrapped. Her hair had been shaped into a fetching shaggy
bob and dyed a light ash colour. Buffy wasn’t sure that it suited her
but, what the hell, she could always change it.
After sleeping almost around the clock, Buffy took herself shopping and
made a few changes to her wardrobe. A few sets of serviceable and
practical clothes for patrolling were at the top of her list. Since she
no longer had any reason to get dressed up, with not having a social
life, there was no reason to worry about what she wore on patrol. It
wasn’t like she wanted the vamps to think she was trying to get into
their pants. Instead, she chose gear that would offer a modicum of
protection, was easy to move in and could still be, in a pinch,
something she wouldn’t be ashamed to wear if she ever did get a sort of
social life again. Leather and denim played a large part in her new
look.
When Willow and Tara had returned from England, it had been a while
before the friendships had been rekindled. For some reason it was Tara
that Buffy turned to now with her troubles, not entirely able to forget
what Willow’s actions had put her through in the past, or that it was
Willow who had been instrumental in taking away from her a friend and
her Watcher. Still friendly, they were no longer the intimates of
happier times.
Tara had noticed the change in Buffy’s aura then. The weight of worry
and despair had fallen a little from her shoulders, no doubt the result
of the financial aid she’d received, but a new hardness had settled on
her. Everything seemed sharp, brittle, strangely strong yet oddly
fragile. Over the last couple of years it had changed further. Tara had
watched the yearning towards romantic love almost disappear, now only a
small ember that was in danger of dying completely. Buffy’s levels of
contentment were also steadily diminishing, compensated for by a rise
in her perceptions of honour and duty. Buffy was a honed warrior
standing on the brink of a glorious death, or finding a reason to
fight, a reason to live.
Buffy touched Tara lightly on the shoulder. “Not enough anymore, Tara.
That’s why I need a vampire – I need a bodyguard, someone, to be there
in the fight, to back me up if I slip, give me a chance to fight back
if that’s what I want.” Her hand dropped back to her side. “And, the
real reason I’m here, I’d like you to go with me to the auction, read
some auras for me. Could you do that for me?”
“If…if you want me to, I’ll go with you. Willow can watch the shop for
a few hours by herself.” Tara just hoped she wouldn’t have to look at
too many. She’d need to gather a cleansing spell together before they
went; she had a feeling they’d both need it after.
Five days later the two young women entered a secure complex on the outskirts of LA.
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