Rating: NC-17
Summary: This is a continuation of Origins, and picks up shortly after the end of the first book. What happens to everyone now that Willow is gone from Revello Drive and Angel knows?
Author's Notes: [A/N: In every story, there’s a beginning, a middle and an ending. This then is the middle; whether or not this also constitutes the end remains to be seen. So much for a break in between these two stories. The title comes from that English band, you know the one – four guys?; and the quotes are as attributed. You should all know the drill by now, I own nothing, it all belongs to Joss Whedon, Mutant Enemy and all those other big corporations that own a piece of the Buffy empire.]
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Book Two, Chapter 1. A Day in the Life ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes:
Previously: Almost a month and a half ago, Willow did the highly improbable and brought Buffy back from the dead, ripping her from heaven in the process. Unfortunately, Willow neglected to retrieve her nicely, forcing Buffy to dig herself out of her own grave. Spike found her immediately following and brought her home. They are now openly living together, with the blessings of Giles and Dawn, while Tara and Willow’s relationship has hit the skids. Willow was forced to leave the Summers house, after giving Angel a head’s up about Buffy’s return, her manipulation of Tara being the real reason behind their split. This opens up...well, you’ll see.
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Book Two, Chapter 2. Clutching Stardust ~ Reviews (0)
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[A/N: Don’t worry, I’m going to get to all the juicy stuff soon, oh, and yeah, there will be some sex also. The title comes from the poem in the last chapter (here I go again re-using sources; but this time I paraphrased it a bit. Quotes as attributed, and everything belongs to someone other than me, except for the plot, that’s all mine]
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Book Two, Chapter 3. Indiscreet Questions and Answers. ~ Reviews (0)
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[A/N: I swear, I’m getting to the good stuff. Trust me. Title is a paraphrase of Oscar Wilde (oh that man was a wit – the quote reads “Questions are never indiscreet. Answers sometimes are.”) and the quotes are as attributed, and nothing belongs to me but the plot and some minor characters, otherwise it all belongs to someone else.]
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Book 2, Chapter 4. Farewell, Fair Day and Fading Light ~ Reviews (0)
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[A/N: Here we go folks, things start to get bumpy from here on in. Parts of this chapter are taken directly from Angel the Series, episode 53, written and directed by Tim Minear, because to do anything else would take away from the writing and the performances of the actors. All praise goes to Julie Benz, who took words given to her and transcended them, giving an absolutely sublime performance. The title is from the poem of the same name by Robert Louis Stevenson (ah yes, another Scot and another re-used source). And the quotes are as attributed. Disclaimers are in full force and effect and I don’t own anything.]
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Book Two, Chapter 5. Last Remaining Light. ~ Reviews (0)
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This is for Wolfspider, because tomorrow is her birthday and she asked so nicely for this. My thanks to everyone who's reviewed (it all means so much) but special thanks to Addie, Ariadne, AmyB, Bloodshedbaby, Slaymesoftly and Wolfspider. . . and a real special thanks to the couple of people who emailed me out of the blue with very nice reviews and kept me going during a really dark week. It almost all came crashing down this past week, but you guys kept me sane, each in your own ways. Slainte...all of you. So when you get to the bottom, please, please let me know what you think...it really does help.
Nia
[A/N: Okay, so I lied, sort of. That last chapter was supposed to be longer (and a bit different), but um, my muse? That blond vampire? He wouldn’t take no for an answer, so...wouldn’t leave me alone until I wrote that chapter the way he wanted it. So blame all that on him. I swear its not my fault. Dialogue again take from Angel the Series, episode 53, written by Tim Minear (same as the last chapter). And the ritual described herein is not complete, do not attempt anything like this at home. Title is Audioslave, only because the song was echoing in my head when I started writing this... perhaps it fits also. Quotes as attributed and I own nothing. Not even the computer this was typed on.]
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Book Two, Chapter 6. A Charm of Powerful Trouble ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes:
Is this complicated enough yet? Oh wait, I can make it even more complicated...and don’t you just love me for it? I don’t remember where I saw the “knights who say key” first, but I know it was another fanfic, my apologies (for borrowing it without permission) to the witty author who first coined it and a heartfelt thanks because it’s a great Spikism. Another thing – I don’t know if I’m the only one who ever noticed it, because I’ve never seen anyone say this, so anyway, Joss once said that Giles and Spike were very alike – I’m going to throw Wesley into that mix. William, geek Wesley and Giles – Spike, post-Buffy Wesley and Ripper - - tell me they aren’t all the same guy at different points in development and I’ll...*thinks* . I’m not sure what I’d do, but I don’t think anyone could prove me wrong. Title is from the Scottish Play, act iv, scene i, and the quotes are as attributed. Disclaimers still in full force and effect; I own nothing.]
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Book Two, Chapter 7 Fear Itself ~ Reviews (1)
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[A/N: I’m making these chapters longer (has anyone noticed?), but there’s probably going to be more action. Title is from Franklin Delano Roosevelt – in a speech he gave July 2, 1932 (“the only thing we have to fear is fear itself”) and the quotes are as attributed. Disclaimers still in full force and effect, because I still don’t own a damn thing.]
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Book Two, Chapter 8. Tomorrow’s Questions ~ Reviews (0)
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AN: I’m probably on everyone’s hate list right now...aren’t I? Trust me, I know what I’m doing, at least most of the time. Title is from Edgar Cayce (don’t know who he is? I could tell you to google him, but he was a noted psychic and medium and the full quote is “dreams are today’s answers to tomorrow’s questions”...and the quotes are as attributed. Disclaimers in full force and effect.]
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Book Two, Chapter 9. Don’t Cry Little Sister ~ Reviews (0)
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[A/N: Did anyone jump when Buffy saw Angel standing in their bedroom with bloody hands? If you didn’t I’m not doing my job right, and I’ll have to try harder to scare you. Title is from the soundtrack for The Lost Boys (can we all just...sigh over the hotness that was Keifer Sutherland in that movie?), from the song of the same title and the quotes are, as always, as attributed. Disclaimers in full force and effect.]
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Book Two, Chapter 10. A Light Shines in You ~ Reviews (0)
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You guys have all been so great, I can't thank you all enough. If I were to list everyone who reviewed the last two chapters it would take up all my space, but something tells me you'd rather have the story. (I hope). I'm kind of nervous about this one, so please, let me know what you think.
[A/N: This is moving much quicker than I had expected, which I suppose is a good thing, since this is going to be rather busy...er, full of action? Yeah, that sounds better. Anyway, the title is from a duet sung by Maire Ni Bhraonain of Clannad and Bono from that other Irish band (the one just inducted into the Rock & Roll Hall of Fame) and appears on the Clannad album Macalla. The song is entitled In a Lifetime and gods above its just gorgeous. Go, download it now, its worth the listen, trust me. The quotes are as attributed. Disclaimers in full force and effect.]
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Book Two, Chapter Eleven. The Real Stuff of Life. ~ Reviews (0)
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[A/N: As a writer, some chapters are harder to write than others. Some just seem to flow from the pen (or keyboard) and magically appear on the page before them. And some just resist all efforts to be expressed. The first nine chapters of this story were primarily the first – easy to write and easy to get through. That last chapter was a bitch. I’m not sure if it was because of the emotions or because I wasn’t feeling so hot for a week; or the fact that I cursed myself by saying this had all been going easily. Either way, its done. Hopefully it was halfway decent and readable. The title is from Anais Nin, from Incest, a Journal of love (5 February 1934 entry) and the quotes are as attributed. (Full title quote is I seek the real stuff of life. Profound drama.) Disclaimers in full force and effect.]
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Book Two, Chapter Twelve. A Man Trustworthy ~ Reviews (0)
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[A/N: No, I’m not losing interest in writing this story; No, I’m not going to just end it with a half-assed end; and most emphatically NO I am not leaving this incomplete. I have been in a fair amount of pain and also been unable to spend countless hours typing this up. But I promise, this will be finished and will hopefully have a satisfactory conclusion. The title is from Henry Stimson and the quotes are as attributed. Disclaimers in full force and effect.]
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Book Two, Chapter 13. Half a Dozen Reasonable Hours. ~ Reviews (0)
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like to thank everyone that reviewed that last chapter and especially those of you who de-lurked to bring a smile to my face. I don't think you understand how much that helped. In any case, I don't think I can convey it anyway. Thank you all.
[A/N: Updates are going to be a bit slower and I’m not so happy about that, but I just can’t do anymore than I am. The pain has not decreased any, so its very hard for me to spend lots of time writing/typing. Please bare with me on this. I promise I won’t keep you waiting too long, but it really depends on the pain. That being said, for those of you that keep asking about whether or not I have more stories out there – I am working on getting my original fiction back up on the web. Hopefully that will be sometime soon. Title is from Ralph Waldo Emerson, “Montaigne; or, the Skeptic” and the quotes are as attributed. Disclaimers in full force and effect]
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Book Two. Chapter 14. True Colors ~ Reviews (0)
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I just found out I got nominated for Best Author at Love's Last Glimpse. Whichever one of you lovely readers did that, you have my thanks. I'd love to know who did it. . . . so I can thank you personally.
[A/N: I just want to thank you all for being so patient and for all your lovely reviews. Your kind words mean a lot to me. Okay. So can anyone tell me how come the first thing Angel always does when he goes “bad” or loses his soul he puts on leather pants? Leather pants aren’t necessarily evil...anyway. Another thing is soul-free doesn’t necessarily mean emotionless – it just means (in my opinion) that there is no emotional attachment to any “bad” or “evil” act – no guilt, no remorse, nothing. There might however, be some affection towards others, but that is minor. The title is from Cindy Lauper’s tune (but really, its just a cliche and the lyrics don’t really apply) and the quotes are as attributed. Disclaimers in full force and effect]
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Book Two, Chapter 15. A Hard Days Night. ~ Reviews (0)
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Book Two. Chapter 16. Coming In The Air Tonight. ~ Reviews (0)
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[A/N: Sometimes inspiration won’t come at all which makes trying to write frustrating beyond belief. I’ve been going through something of a dry spell coupled with lots of residual pain from my dislocated shoulder (which makes typing problematic). Perhaps I just need to watch certain episodes of the show all over again and get aggravated with the writing and dangling plot threads...yeah, and chalk it up as research. Anyway, I’m struggling a bit here, so any thoughts (kind hopefully) you can send my way would be greatly appreciated. The title is from Phil Collins from the album Face Value and the quotes are as attributed. Disclaimers in full force and effect. I own nothing but the plot and a few minor original characters.]
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Book Two. Chapter 17. The Ragged Edges of Truth ~ Reviews (0)
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[A/N: I’ve been in lots of pain lately, for a couple of different reasons and its just been a major pain in the ass. The biggest bright spot has been all the wonderful reviews. Things are going to start heating up again, those last couple of chapters were really sort of like a calm between storms. So, here we go...The title is from Herman Melville (I paraphrased it somewhat) and the quotes are as attributed. Disclaimers in full force and effect. I own nothing.]
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Book Two. Chapter 18. Communication Got Me Down. ~ Reviews (0)
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[A/N: Plots and stories are funny things. The author gets this idea, and it sort of sits for a while, germinating, while the author goes about their daily routine, sort of like a pea (and we all grew them at a certain point for science), until it breaks through its shell and starts this wonderful process of producing flowers and then finally, it produces some fruit. You can’t push the process any faster, you can’t magically make a plot grow in mere minutes and no amount of nagging or prodding or pleading will speed that up. You kind of just have to go with the flow. When that process is impeded by outside sources, it sometimes stalls, creating that wonderful state we all know as writer’s block. I know, I’ve suffered from it. Plots sometimes get advanced in very subtle ways, very often without the reader realizing that the plot actually has advanced while the action seems very slow. Character interaction plays a very key part of most stories, and I’d like to think this one in particular. Okay, I’ll get off my soapbox now, because I know you want to “get to the story and move the plot along” since apparently, I’m not doing enough of that. Title is from Spandau Ballet, only because the damn song was echoing in my head so I figured what the hell (the song is Communication) and the quotes are as attributed. Disclaimers in full force and effect.]
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Book Two, Chapter 19. Knowledge is Power ~ Reviews (0)
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[A/N: I’m trying to get back into the groove of writing, after having a terrible bout of pain, and hopefully I’m over that hump. I have a definite game plan in mind, but its coming slower than I had thought. My apologies to those of you who were looking for a quick pay-off. There’s a mention to certain of my girls...and hopefully they’ll know it when they see it. The title is from Sir Francis Bacon (Religious Meditations, of Heresies) and the quotes, as always, as attributed. Disclaimers in full force and effect.]
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Book Two. Chapter 20. Wisdom Lingers ~ Reviews (0)
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[A/N: Its been really slow going. I’m sorry. I can’t push it any more than I am. I had some of these chapters already written in anticipation of something like this happening, but I ended up posting nearly all of them. So now I’m stuck. Trying to play catch up with myself. Things will hopefully start to look up as certain real life situations get resolved, but don’t bank on updates any quicker than once a week. Hopefully I won’t lose any of my lovely readers. *hugs to each and every one of you*. Title is from Alfred Lord Tennyson, Locksley Hall and the quotes are as attributed. Disclaimers in full force and effect. I own nothing]
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Book Two, Chapter 21. An Unhurried Sense of Time. ~ Reviews (0)
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[A/N: Sometimes you just have to take a step back, away from some things and then whatever it is sort of falls into place and everything works. That sort of happened here. Sort of. The plot points of this story are all done, its just a matter of getting it all on paper, or screen or wherever. I’m working on it. This chapter is a time compressing one, meaning that its going to be little snippets of moments in the next coming weeks, until it slows down again. Title is from Bonnie Franklin in the New York Times (An unhurried sense of time is in itself a form of wealth) and the quotes are as attributed. And the disclaimers are in full force and effect.]
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Book Two. Chapter 22. Tender Looks Becoming Habit. ~ Reviews (0)
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[A/N: Thanks to everyone who waited oooh so patiently for the story to get to this point. Everything that I’ve thrown into the cauldron is going to start bubbling and boiling and...well, we’ll see whether this will be a bitter brew or something more savory...The title is from a quote by Peter Ustinov, (Love is an act of endless forgiveness, a tender look which becomes habit) and the quotes are as attributed. Disclaimers, as always, are in full force and effect.]
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Book Two, chapter 23. An Ever Fixed Mark. ~ Reviews (0)
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[A/N: That last chapter wasn’t supposed to be so long, but somehow it became that way. The urge to write was on me, and well, I let the muse control it. I just copied down what he wanted. Blame it all on him. The title is from the Bard of Avon, Sonnet CXVI and quotes are as attributed. Disclaimers, as ever, are in full force and effect.]
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Book Two. Chapter 24. Hope is a Waking Dream. ~ Reviews (1)
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[A/N: I’ve had a couple of weeks from hell. Literally. I’ve been unable to type, the pain in my arm so intense that nothing’s been helping it. I’m so sorry about not being able to update. I feel so badly about it. I promise to make it all up to somehow. Please don’t be angry with me. The title is from Aristotle as quoted by Diogenes Laertes in Lives of Eminent Philosophers, and the quotes are as attributed. Disclaimers in full force and effect.]
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Book Two, Chapter 25. Eye of the Hurricane. ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes:
n, I apologize for taking so long with these updates. I simply cannot do them faster. I wish I could, because I’m dying to get this finished. Not in a bad way either, I just want to tell the story. Title is from that Welsh group, The Alarm (really you should go listen) from the album of the same name and the quotes are as attributed. Disclaimers, as always, are in full force and effect, coz Joss owns it all.]
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Book Two. Chapter 26. A soundless calm descends ~ Reviews (0)
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[A/N: I’m working on it, this story and the other one (and the new ones that I have nasty plot bunnies hounding me about), but I recently re-injured my arm just a little bit, and its been very slow going. My profound and deepest apologies, I can’t tell you how sorry I am. There might be some things in this chapter and in others that might upset some of my readers. Sorry if those things bother you, but its all part of the story and well, blast away if you like, but be prepared for me to blast right back. Title is from Emily Bronte (and the entire quote is below) and the quotes are as attributed. Disclaimers are in full force and effect.]
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Book Two, Chapter 27. Planning lies with men. ~ Reviews (0)
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[A/N: This isn’t going to be pretty, what’s about to happen, so there’s your warning. I don’t know how this is going to turn out, in terms of graphic descriptions, so if you get squicked, my apologies in advance, but this is the way the story is going to be. That being said, I like Cordelia, liked her from the beginning, and well, I’m sorry that its her that has to go through this. Title is from one of the quotes and the rest of the quotes are as attributed. The disclaimers, as always, prove that I own nothing, Joss has it all.]
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Book Two, chapter 28. Rescue me ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes: [A/N: These aren’t easy chapters to write. I’m trying to keep the gore to a minimum, but I really don’t know how much I can omit. Rest assured though, that all of it has a purpose. May not be the purpose you want to serve, but it does serve one. Title is from the Alarm (again) from the song of the same name and the quotes belong to those who uttered them (I’m just passing along the wisdom). And those pesky disclaimers prove once again, that I own nothing.]
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Book Two. Chapter 29. Relying on hope ~ Reviews (0)
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[A/N: Sometimes it’s a struggle to just get a word down on paper and sometimes the words flow from the pen like they were pent up within the ink. Irony, it seems, isn’t lost at all. This chapter was a study in contrasts for me. I knew exactly what I wanted to say, but some of the words wouldn’t emerge from the pen and then suddenly, it clicked and I had written 9 more pages. Hopefully none of it sucks. Title is from one of the quotes (yet twisted a bit) and the quotes, as always, belong to those who first uttered (or wrote) them. Disclaimers, as always, are in full force and effect.]
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Book Two, Chapter 30. Ache of heaven ~ Reviews (0)
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[A/N: I’m not so sure about anyone else, but I hated what was done to Cordelia in season 3 of Angel – that whole story line with Connor was just wrong in so very many ways that I can’t begin to list them all. But hey, this is where we, as fans and writers, get to “fix” what we thought was “wrong” or a “mistake” with the writing. And this doesn’t take away from any of the brilliance of the creator or his team of writers, it just shows that what some of us thought all along. That some of us are just as talented, just as dedicated and just as fanatical about the characters as the people who put them on the screen. That being said, I still think . . . well, never mind, I’ll get off my soapbox. The title is from the poem, which was written by me (the title for the poem is Desecrated Angel) and the quotes are as attributed. Those pesky rotten disclaimers prove that I own nothing, not even a lousy autograph.]
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Book Two. Chapter 31. Things of bestial shape ~ Reviews (0)
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[A/N: Struggled through a bit of a block, which I’m finding happens whenever I get through a particularly grueling chapter (or set of chapters), so I’m thinking its emotional break-down or something. Anyway, here’s the next installment of this saga. . . . My thanks to you all. Title is from one of the quotes, which are as attributed. Disclaimers, which are fully operative, prove that I own nothing of the Whedonverse, though if I did, I’d write that damn happy ending.]
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Book Two, Chapter 32. The promise of daylight. ~ Reviews (0)
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I’ve got a couple of others that I’m anxious to get started on, but I can’t – and won’t start them until I have one of these two current WIPs finished. Hopefully the new story will be worth the wait. Title is from a quote from the London Times Christmas editorial, 24 December 1984 (the full quote is below) and the quotes are as attributed. Disclaimers in full force and effect.]
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Book Two. Chapter 33. Unending lightning. ~ Reviews (0)
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[A/N: I’m working on these chapters like a madwoman, trying to finish one of these stories, but honestly, it looks like Baby Love is gonna get finished first. . . . but hey, if its any consolation, I have another story just waiting to be told. . . Title is from one of the quotes and the quotes are as attributed; and the poem Spike quotes is from Samuel Taylor Coleridge (Love). Disclaimers are in full force and effect.]
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Book Two. Chapter 34. Two hearts beat as one. ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes: [A/N: Two chapters of happiness is all you gentle readers are getting. That last one and this one. After that, the angst and bad stuff starts happening all over again. And its going to come like most troubles do, not in singles, but in battalions (oooohhh can you tell me who said that?). Anyway, here it is, my Christmas in the summer chapter. . . . All is calm, all is bright. There was a virgin sitting with a baby under a Christmas tree in the last chapter, did anyone notice? Title is from that Irish band (from the album War, released in 1983) and the quotes are as attributed. The disclaimers someone insists I use (blame it on legal, I always do, although that just means its my own damn fault) really do prove that I don’t own any part of the Whedonverse.]
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Book Two. Chapter 35. Patient for a moment. ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes: [A/N: I should learn never to make pronouncements from “on high” about my writing, especially when my muse is taller than I am and has the ability to get me to do whatever he wants. I never expected that bathroom scene, but hey, that’s what the muse wanted, so that’s what he got. So here’s one more sort of happy chapter, before the bad things start happening. Title is from one of the quotes and the quotes are as attributed. Disclaimers mean that someone else gets to collect all those lovely royalties. Do you realize that Whedon never has to work again?]
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Book Two. Chapter 36. Missing ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes: [A/N: I know I sound like a broken record, and I apologize. I just hurt my arm again – something popped and I couldn’t move it for 3 days, which sort of inhibited my ability to type and just made the writer’s block I was going through worse. However, you can all thank Slinky and Addie for getting me through it. Without either of them – Slinky for her timely mailing of the wonderful soundtrack she put together for me – and Addie for general hand-holding. You two pulled me through. Thanks. Title is from the title of one of the quotes, from a band called Arcadia. . . and if anyone can tell me who Arcadia was (without looking it up) you get a gold star – and anyone like me, who actually owns their album gets kisses. . . and the quotes are as attributed. Disclaimers in full force and effect.]
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Book Two. Chapter 37. What love can do ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes: [A/N: So sorry about the delay in updates, but I haven’t been able to do much typing at all, due to the shoulder pain, and I’ve managed to get a little bit done every day. This is the result of those efforts. Hopefully it will live up to all expectations. Title is from one of the quotes, which are, as always, as attributed. Disclaimers are in full force and effect.]
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Book Two. Chapter 38. The monsters of our childhood ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes: [A/N: There’s a whole lot left of this story. . . I think I just realized that. . . and I’m also thinking it might actually need to be broken up again. . . Anyway, the title is from John Le Carreʹ and the quotes are as attributed. Disclaimers in full force and effect.]
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Book Two. Chapter 39. Lambs for the slaughter ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes: [A/N: I’m still not certain about how or where I’m going to break this up, but it is something that’s on my mind. So this is sort of a feed-back issue. . . .I guess. I’m pretty sure there will be enough interest. . . But then again, maybe I’m not sure. The Welsh translation is mine own, so all errors there belong to me. Title is from a song from Depeche Mode (and is in itself a paraphrase of a biblical quote) and the quotes are as attributed. Disclaimers are in full force and effect.]
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Book Two. Chapter 40. Grief fades in and out ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes: [A/N: I lied. Its been longer than 3 days and it’s been a huge struggle getting this chapter typed up. Thank you all for your kind words and nice reviews. I greatly appreciate it and it really helps my mood and muse. Thank you all. Title is taken from one of the quotes, which are as attributed. Disclaimers are in full force and effect.]
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Book Two. Chapter 41. Savage and serene in one hour ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes: [A/N: Sorry for the delays in updating. Hopefully my arm will ease a bit and things will get better and I’ll be able to update quicker. Thanks to all of you for sticking with me on this. You’re all the best. Title is from one of the quotes which are as attributed. Disclaimers are in full force and effect.]
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Book Two. Chapter 42. Our memory is our coherence ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes: [A/N: Every word is an effort lately. . . . Thanks so much for the support. Title is from of of the quotes, which are as attributed. Disclaimers in full force and effect. I own nada, zip, zilch, nothing.]
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Book Two. Chapter 43. Persistence of memory ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes: [A/N: I’m struggling with almost every word I’m writing. I’m so sorry about these updates, but I can’t possibly push anymore than I am. Quotes are as attributed and the title is from not even a quote, but a painting by Salvador Dali. . . and I’m sure you’ve all seen it. Disclaimers are in full force and effect, meaning I own nothing.]
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Book Two. Chapter 44. Shadows of the world appear ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes: [A/N: I’m trying so hard to get these words on paper. . . and it’s a struggle. . . . I hope you all enjoy this. I’d like to take a moment to thank KarGrif, who made the pretty banners for Origins (go look!!!!!) and she’s making me more too. She does really good work and it’s totally true to my vision. Thanks sweetie, for putting up with my temperamental fits and starts. Title is from one of my favorite poems by Alfred Lord Tennyson, and probably one of his more famous works (The Lady of Shalott) and the quotes are as attributed. Disclaimers are, as always, in full force and effect.]
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Book two, chapter 45. Mingled yarn ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes: [A/N: I’m trying so hard to get this all out, but the near constant pain interferes with the muse. At the moment, the muse is winning. Lucky for you, isn’t it? Title is from one of the quotes and they are as attributed. Disclaimers, as always, are in full force and effect.]
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Book two. Chapter 46. An untimely frost ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes: [A/N: I’ve had a little relief – but not enough. I wish it were more. . . . anyway. Title is from one of the quotes; and they are as attributed. Disclaimers, as always, in full force and effect.]
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Book two. Chapter 47. Grief’s best music ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes: [A/N: Its amazing how much simple rest can rejuvenate a person. I got some rest and relaxation over the Thanksgiving break and this is the result. And that tells you how long of a lag I have, because this is now January. I could look up the California regulations for suicide attempts, but I don’t feel like it, so any mistakes are mine (I do know it’s the case in New York, though, so I’m going to follow the idea what works in one works in the other). Title is from one of the quotes, which are as attributed. Disclaimers are in full force and effect.]
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Book two. Chapter 48. Golden sunsets and black storms ~ Reviews (1)
Author's Notes: [A/N: I’m working on this, slowly but surely, chipping away at the plotlines and all the fun stuff. . . . . Title is from one of the quotes, which are as attributed. Disclaimers are in full force and effect.]
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Book Two. Chapter 49. Cutting the heart asunder ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes: [A/N: I’m working on getting this done and since this is all the muse wants to deal with, this is what’s getting written. . . . Title is from one of the quotes, which are as attributed. Disclaimers in full force and effect.]
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Book two. Chapter 50. Evil gains work their punishment. ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes: I wish I could respond to every single review that I've gotten for this story. . . . because I don't think any of you understand how much the notes, encouragement and well wishes mean to me. I'm humbled by the concern and caring and outrageiously wonderful response. Its wonderful and so very welcome. Please, please keep the good words coming. And you all have to give a nod of thanks to Addie Logan, because she's been looking over these last couple of chapters for me, because I'm too out of it to catch my own mistakes. Nor would I have made it this far without her help with the plot bunnies.
[A//N: Slowly but steadily, we are getting to the end. . . . I think. See, because someone *coughSlinkycough* gave me a plot bunny. . . . But I don’t know when I’ll be able to get to it, since I have another story that’s been nagging at me for months now. Title is from one of the quotes, which are as attributed. Disclaimers are in full force and effect.]
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Book Two. Chapter 51. False face must hide ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes: [A/N: I’ve never struggled so much with words as I have lately; every thought is an effort, every scene a monumental battle to get the images and emotions across. I feel like I’m failing at every turn. . . . And nothing’s working. Title is from one of the quotes, which are as attributed. I own nothing of the Whedonverse, I’m only borrowing, so the disclaimers are in full force and effect. More’s the pity.]
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Book Two. Chapter 52. End of happiness ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes: [A/N: Since before the holidays, every word has been a struggle. While I got a bit of rest and some writing done over the Thanksgiving holiday, for the most part the chapters have been like pulling teeth. There were entire days when I didn’t edit a damn thing, much less write it. I almost wish I could blame a beta, but I don’t use one. *sighs* Quotes and title are from. . . . and the disclaimers are always in full force and effect. Enjoy].
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Book Two. Chapter 53. A siege of waiting ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes: [A/N: I’ve been having so much trouble with just getting my thoughts down, because my time is stretched so thin and my health is sort of suffering. Please forgive me of the delay in updates. I’m going to try and be a bit more proactive with this block, and push to get the chapters out. The sad part is, the story is all there, in my head . . . It’s just getting it from head to paper. *sighs* I need a secretary. Title is from one of the quotes, which are as attributed. Disclaimers in full force and effect.]
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Book Two. Chapter 54. Reveal not every secret ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes: [A/N: Finding my way back to this story after the drought I’d been on hasn’t been easy. It’s been a rough climb, what with all the gnashing of teeth and trying to please my muse in any way. . . . Well, it wasn’t pretty. Hopefully, I’ve got my groove back after a small vacation and this will start to pick up again. Thank you all for bearing with me. Title and quotes are as attributed. Disclaimers are in full force and effect.]
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Book Two. Chapter 55 The shadow of power ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes: [A/N: Apparently, my muse is fond of marshmallow peeps. Sort of. And a little bit of rest. Go figure. Title and quotes are as attributed and disclaimers are still fully operative. ]
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Book Two. Fifty-Six. The enemy of my enemy ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes: [A/N: I’ve been pulling my hair out and gnashing my teeth with this. I just can’t seem to get the words to come. I know a lot of you are waiting (very patiently I might add) for this and. . . gods, I’m so sorry about that. I wish I could just magically make it appear on my screen. Title is well, everyone’s said it forever, and no one really knows who first coined the phrase, so I’m not going to make the attempt, however the quotes are as attributed. The disclaimers are in full force and effect. I own nothing.]
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Book Two. Chapter Fifty-seven. Hymn Before Action ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes: [A/N: I’m going to be cautiously optimistic for the writer’s block here. *crosses eyes and fingers* Hopefully everything will start flowing again. Title is from Rudyard Kipling and contained herein and the quotes are as attributed. Disclaimers in full force and effect.]
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Book Two. Chapter 58 Planning is indispensible ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes:
[A/N: I’ve been sick as hell the past couple of weeks, but hopefully by the time this is posted, I’ll be feeling all better. (This was written 8 June 2006) Title and quotes are as attributed and disclaimers are, as always, in full force and effect.]
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Book Two. Chapter 59. More dangerous to lose ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes: [A/N: Wow. . . . . believe it or not, but I wrote two and a half chapters in the last week. . . Go me! Titles and quotes are as attributed. Disclaimers are in full force and effect.] Following that little tidbit above (about two chapters in a week?) I totally got sidetracked. Between a very frightening scare with my healh and then WriterCon, and moving, plus some deaths in the family, this has been a really, really hectic summer. I apologize for the delay in updates, and I promise now that things *knocks wood* have settled down a bit, updates will be quicker. My thanks to Tam, who volunteered to beta this and all my other stuff at WriterCon for doing a bang-up job on everything. And thanks to all of you for putting up with this really long epic. (And who knows, you all might just get that third book. . . . )
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Book Two. Chapter 60. Unto the breach ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes: [A/N: Here we go, moving onward and upward, struggling toward a finish, or something resembling a finish. thanks again, Tam, for the readthrough and beta work Title and quotes are as attributed. The disclaimers are in full force and effect.]
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Book Two. Chapter 61. Comes a rattle and hum ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes: [A/N: We are steps closer to coming toward a resolution. . . . perhaps. I’m not sure how I feel about a sequel to this, although some of you are asking for it. I don’t know. There’s more story to tell, but if there’s no interest in it, I won’t bother. Thanks to everyone who’s stuck with me this long and who’s willing to go further. This is all for you. Enjoy. Thanks go to Tam for her lovely beta effort and to Addie, because without her support, this would not be anywhere close to being at the point it's at. Title (from one of my favorite songs)and quotes are as attributed. Disclaimers in full force and effect.]
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Book Two. Chapter 62. Now’s the day, now’s the hour ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes: [A/N: The choreography of this portion of the story is daunting; and I don’t think I can accurately convey that at all. Every step, every punch, every moment has to be mapped out and staged in my head (and sometimes physically) before I put it down on paper. If I can’t make it work in my head, I can’t make it work in yours, so it has to be perfect. Hence my excuse – er – reason why this is taking so long. I hope its worth the extra efforts. I only have your feedback to let me know whether it is or not. Thanks again to Tam (spikeslovebite) for her beta skills. And to all of you who reviewed and left lovely little messages about whether or not I should write the third story, thank you all very much for your input. Title and quotes are as attributed and the disclaimers, as always, are in full force and effect.]
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Book Two. Chapter 63 Never hit softly ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes: [A/N: Between one thing and another this summer just got completely past me. I spent a couple of weeks being unable to see anything at all, then moved onto WriterCon and then actually moving from one place to another. And of all that the only thing I had planned on was WriterCon. So my apologies for not being more prolific. Hopefully that will change as this nears completion. Title and quotes are as attributed. Disclaimers, as always, in full force and effect. I own nothing but the plot and a few minor characters.]
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Book Two. Chapter 64. Let slip the dogs of war ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes: [A/N: My life is sort of settling down, everything falling into a routine, which will settle even more after school starts again. Although my offspring won’t be happy, I might be. By the bye, the fight between Spike and Angel was solely the idea of my offspring, who sold me on it by acting the whole thing out, minus the dialogue, which was my contribution. So if you have any complaint about the way it turned out, blame it all on him. Once again, thanks to Tam for her lovely and efficient beta. Title and quotes are as attributed and disclaimers are in full force effect.]
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Book Two. Chapter 65. Wild Justice ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes: [A/N: Pulling all this together is like . . . tying the ends of a really elaborate tapestry together and hoping the damn thing looks the way the weaver envisioned it – or like catering a huge event and hoping the appetizers and the desserts all work well and that the main course doesn’t get shortchanged either. Hopefully I won’t disappoint anyone in the process. I had to edit this, send it to Tam, re-edit it because neither of us was happy with certain parts, and well, scramble to get this ready for posting. . . which didn’t happen when I wanted it to anyway. I’m sorry for the delay. Title and quotes belong to those who first uttered them. Disclaimers in full force and effect.]
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Book Two. Chapter 66. No one mourns the wicked ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes: [A/N: Oh so slowly we creep toward a resolution for this portion of Origins; and yes, there is more story to be told. I am however, going to be taking a short break and attempt to work on something else before I tackle the next tale. I hope you’ll all be patient and read whatever else the muse wants. My thanks again to Tam, without whom much of this wouldn’t have been done and you sure as hell wouldn’t be getting this chapter this week. Title and quotes are as attributed. I own nothing.]
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Book Two. Chapter 67. A brief respite from fear ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes: [A/N: We are nearing the end of the second book – and yes, there will be a third installment, I just can’t say when it will be posted, since I haven’t even started working on it. I will get it done though. I have another couple of stories I’d like to start and possibly finish before I start on that, but I’m afraid that’s not going to be possible, given the way I write. Anyway, so here it is. Thank Tam for her wonderful beta (and fast turn around also) and to Slinky and Addie, without whom there wouldn’t be any quotes for this one, at least not tonight. Title and quotes are as attributed and the disclaimers are in full force and effect. Therefore, I own nothing save the plot and a few minor characters.]
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Book Two. Chapter Sixty-Eight. Wither Into Truth ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes: [A/N: I actually did some thinking about this story and I realized I have no idea how much more this particular installment has to go before it’s finished. The funny thing is, while I was at WriterCon, at the writer’s block workshop, I mentioned that I was suffering from a bit of a block and described what was going on. . . and one of the panelist quipped “maybe that’s because the story is over” and the truth is, this story is far from over (and by the by, that was probably 20 or so chapters ago). And, just in case anyone’s wondering what the reaction was, I think Tam nearly bit her tongue when that was suggested. Addie Logan just laughed, coz she knows exactly how much of a story I have planned. . . . Title and quotes are as attributed. Disclaimers, as always, prove I own nothing. My thanks again to Tam for the superb beta work.]
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Book Two. Chapter Sixty-Nine. A doubtful choice ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes: [A/N: As if my real life wasn’t complicated enough, it got further complicated by incidents involving family members, and got further complicated by my own situation and then, well, on-line stuff hit the fan. And lo and behold, writer’s block hit. *sighs* I’ve been slowly working through it, and hopefully these chapters won’t reflect the difficulty I’ve been having. Tam assures me, though, that they aren’t drek. I’ll have to trust that. My thanks as always, to her for the superb and quick beta and to Addie for, well, everything else. Title and quotes are as attributed. Disclaimers in full force and effect.]
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Book Two. Chapter Seventy. Into the Mystic ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes: [A/N: I’m moving forward, that’s all I’m gonna say; because like I said in an earlier note, I have no idea how many chapters I have left. Not too many more, but one can never tell with me. And I’ve got another story to write after this one. Well, at least another one. Title (this time from a Van Morrison song title) and quotes are as attributed. Disclaimers in full force and effect.]
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Book Two. Chapter Seventy-One. The pierless bridge ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes: [A/N: Slowly we creep toward and end to this installment of the saga that is the lives and loves of Spike and Buffy according to Niamh. . . . LOL. I’m sorry. This is starting to wrap up, and we are coming to a conclusion. Just a bit more to go, and then we are done. And hey, I can work on something else for a bit. . . LOL. Titles and quotes are as attributed. Disclaimers in full force and effect. I own nothing.]
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Book Two. Chapter Seventy-two. No oceans between us ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes: [A/N: This story just picked up another two awards, one of which completely floored me, especially given the competition. Nominated in the one-shot category of “Best Baby Fic” in Round 5 of Fang Fetish Awards, along with some very serious competition including Megan’s Nanny Spike and Aunt Buffy, Addie Logan’s Newborn, and Heart Don’t Lie by Nautibitz, (which were my personal favorites) I totally did not expect to win at all. Imagine my complete surprise when I did. Just really floored me. I am not a little overwhelmed by the reception this story has gotten and continues to get; it’s very humbling. So my thanks to whomever nominated me, thanks to the judges who voted for me and a heartfelt thanks to the judge who made this their favorite story (because I got a judge’s choice award also). The title is a loose paraphrase, I came up with (and the title of my web page) that sort of owes itself to a line in the movie Dracula (1992 Coppola version) “I have crossed oceans of time for you.” Disclaimers in full force and effect.]
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Book Two. Chapter Seventy-three. Justice turns the scale ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes: [A/N: I swear I’m trying to finish this and not prolong anyone’s agony. I swear. We are reaching a conclusion, so that’s good, right? My eternal thanks once again to Tam, and to Addie for support, beta skills and all around hand holding. My thanks also to each and every single one of you that’s stuck with me through this saga. Title and quotes are as attributed. Disclaimers in full force and effect.]
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Book Two. Chapter Seventy-Four A courteous yet harrowing grace ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes: [A/N: We’re moving along steadily now, so hopefully, they’ll be something leading to a conclusion herein. I sure hope so. . . I have to thank two people who have helped me enormously in the last couple of months – Addie Logan for her constant support through this, and instant feedback and Spikeslovebite (Tam) who has done the most amazing beta job and I’m so glad she talked (begged) me into letting her beta in Atlanta at WriterCon. I don’t know how I would have done this last bit without either of you. Title (which is from Emily Dickinson’s As imperceptibly as Grief) and quotes are as attributed. Disclaimers in full force and effect.]
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Book Two. Chapter Seventy-five. To protect someone precious ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes: [A/N: With Campfires finished, that brings my WIPs down to five, not including the original fiction I’ve started working on again. So yeah, I’m something of a busy character these days. Hopefully something else will reach a conclusion. I’ve sort of taken a very informal poll on my livejournal, and I’m going to ask you all if there’s an interest in a third book of Origins. So please, if you are interested, just leave me a little note and let me know. I appreciate it. My thanks to all of you that are still with me, still reading and leaving reviews. Every single one of them makes my day. Slainte, one and all. Title and quotes are as attributed. Disclaimers in full force and effect. I own nothing.]
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Book Two. Chapter Seventy-six First step home ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes: [A/N: This is really close to being wrapped up – I know I’ve been saying that for a long time, but now I really, truly mean it. No more than two chapters, I think and this is one done puppy. But rest assured, there will be a third installment. I just don’t know when I’ll be getting to it. That all depends on the muse. And my energy. My thanks to all of you who responded to let me know that you do want a third book, and the outpouring of support was wonderful. Huge hugs go out to both Spikeslovebite and Addie Logan, without whom I wouldn’t have been as inspired – they push me to be a better writer every day. Title and quotes belong to those who first uttered them and the disclaimers, as always, are in full force and effect. I own nothing.]
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Book Two. Chapter Seventy-Seven Rarest Vintage ~ Reviews (0)
Author's Notes: [A/N: This started out as the last chapter, but apparently, my characters thought differently. Therefore, this is not the last chapter, but the penultimate chapter. Title and quotes are as attributed, and the disclaimers are in full force and effect (meaning I own nothing. Nada. Zip. Zilch.]
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Book Two. Chapter Seventy-eight. Just like heaven ~ Reviews (3)
Author's Notes: [A/N: This is the end. Well, not the complete and total end, only the end of the second book. Since there was an overwhelming response of yes to my question of a third book, there will be one. In the meantime I hope you’ve enjoyed this little story and if you want to know certain details, there’s a sort of off-shoot to this story that’s posted at Elysian Fields called Destinies. It sort of explains how things could have gone, in one possible time line. My heartfelt thanks to all of you that have followed this saga from the beginning and those of you that left reviews. I appreciate your support and kindness more than I can possibly express. I don’t think I can accurately put into words what everyone’s support has meant over the two years (!) it’s taken me to weave this tale. ‘Thank you’ somehow doesn’t feel adequate. But I do thank you – all of you. Every review, every kind word, every email sent has made a difference. . . You are all the best. My thanks also, to both Spikeslovebite and Addie Logan, for their unwavering support, instant feedback and being there when I needed someone to bounce ideas off. Thanks to slinkypsychokit, who’s put together a stellar soundtrack for both Origins and Revelations and will no doubt, continue to do so. And for all the girls at WriterCon – I miss you all and can’t wait until we can all get together again. Anyway, here it is. Title and quotes are as attributed. Hopefully, I don’t actually need to list any of the song titles below. Disclaimers, as always, in full force and effect. I own nothing.]
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